Wonderfully Made

May 10th, 2012

Writing this blog has been an endeavour that is not my own.  While the idea was my son's, and the hands that type the words may be mine, I have no doubt at all that these words are inspired by God.
I would not change one situation in my life.  Not one moment, not one tear, not one moment of pain.  God is so good to me that He has always given me the grace to come through these moments, and with the tender leading of the Holy Spirit on my soul, has shown me and taught me so much about Himself.  He has used these moments to show me His power and strength.  He has molded my heart with compassion, He has formed the words on my tongue and in my heart to love and encourage others (just as they have done for me).
I am not deceived.  I know who I would be without God's leading and teaching.  I am controlling and selfish, and at times, very unlovable.  But God still feels I am worth the effort.  He loves me in spite of who I am.  He stays with me, even when I have my unlovable moments.
I have questioned.  I have asked why?  I have railed against my situation.  I have wondered away, silent for a season.  I have felt alone and unworthy.  And yet He still stays with me.  This is the love of a Holy God.  One that is unequalled in all the world.
What I have gone through in my 52 years have been moments of God molding me, giving me experiences so that I would show compassion to others that suffer the same or similar circumstances.  Through these moments, God has put compassion and love into my heart.  Not my love for my fellow man, but His love for them.  I pray to see each individual with the eyes that God has, so I can see their value and their worth to Him.  God has made us all in His image, so there are no mistakes or levels of perfection in God's creation.
Whenever I think my situation may be a bit overwhelming, I can always hear another person's trials and thank God for my blessings.  Nothing we endure can compare to the struggle of Christ on the cross, separated from God, and taking on the sins of those that gossip, cheat, lie, rape, murder, molest, slander.  I am so very grateful to God that He pursued me many years ago.  My life has had its high points and its low points, but one thing I can truly say about God is that He is faithful and true.  His word is true and His love is higher than any other.
My only prayer for the blog and my life at this time are that God will be glorified through all of this.  If you gain strength from the writings, please thank God.  He truly put the words there for you.  I am only putting down what He inspires me to write.  If you gain faith from the writings, thank God.  For He knows you so intimately that He knows exactly which words will touch you.
I did not make my body nor the mind and the brain that He gave me.  Any good you see in me was put there as a gift from God.  He has blessed you too with gifts.  You may already know what they are, or you may spend years discovering them.  They are always things that come easily to you.  You always wonder why other people think this is so hard because it requires very little effort on your part.  That is a gift He has given you.  A strength, a talent, an ability so that you can use this for His purpose.  I pray that God will continue to show you how loving and merciful He is, and during moments where He seems to be gone, you will look back on His answers to prayer, and times when He felt so close you could almost feel His breath on your cheek, and know that He has never left you nor forsaken you. (Hebrews 13:5)  We can do all things through God who strengthens us. (Phil 4:13)